Sitting in a college classroom in 1999 learning about early childhood education we watched a video on hypnosis in childbirth. I was mesmerized but scared. I joked that I could handle the pregnancy part and the baby part but the delivery part scared the crap out of me. I was convinced the only way to get through childbirth, eventually, would be if I had an IV drip of whiskey or if I could do the hypnosis.
Fast forward ten years when I'm pregnant with my first child at the age of 30. My husband and I would be a a crossroads several times throughout this pregnancy. At first he told me all of our babies would be born at home. I told him he was crazy. Then I told him all our babies would be at home and he told me I was crazy. Sometime in the third trimester we came to the same conclusion that babies could be born at home but the hospital was the best and safest place for our baby to be born. We had first time parent jitters and a lot of what-ifs so the hospital it was. But this decision wasn't made lightly. I threw myself into reading. One of the first books I picked up was Gentle Birth Choices by Barbara Harper. We would read in bed together (he was reading historical non-fiction, not birth books) and I would interrupt his reading every few minutes with a new and interesting fact about natural child birth. I then read Ina May Gaskin's Guide to Childbirth and anything else I could get my hands on. Little did I know reading these books would change my life.